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One life to live

Last week I finished reading an e-book about people at the end of their lives: what they wanted to say before they die and what was important for them – also some things what they maybe never expressed to other people before.

Honestly – it was one of the most depressing book I have ever read. Almost all people in the book, who wrote their last words down didn’t believe in God and they did not believe that there will be a life after death.They thought, when they die, that’s it!

The book was „easy“ to read, but because it was so sad what I read, I could only read a few pages each day. It made me so sad!

Some people said, what they regret and what they would have done differently and some people where ok with the lives they lived and didn’t expect anything after death.

I think a lot about my life and about the purpose of life. When I was about 28 years, I wrote down in some sentences, what I would like that people say about me when I am not here on earth anymore. Or better: what would I like that people say about me on my 60th birthday.

When you write down these sentences it really shows: what is the most important for you here on earth? What do you want to be known for? What is your purpose in life?

A few years ago I read this sentence, what I wrote down when I was 28, every day – I did this for a few years. I want to start it again in 2014: because it puts right in front of your eyes: what is important for me today? What is the bigger picture here? What is important in my life? Then I don’t get caught up so much in the daily „sorrows“ and „problems“ or superficial things, but have the bigger picture in mind.

Yesterday I went to a contemporary gospel concert in Vienna and they where singing

songs that reminded me so much of my childhood and teenage years and the songs really touched my heart.

They where singing for example one song that I always loved so much: it is from Andrae Crouch: My tribute (To God be the glory).

This is also my desire: to honor God in all I do! To God be the glory!

 

The song expresses what I feel and what my desire is:

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This song brings tears to my eyes, because I think of what Jesus Christ did for me on the cross and that he died for me in order that I might live!

I am very thankful that my parents lived a life that showed me for who it is worth living for: God – the Lord of my life!

I have one life to live and I think constantly: how can I live my life best for the glory of God! What is my calling?

What is your desire for your life? Do you know what your calling is?

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How my dreams came true (Part 4)

Finally here comes the continuation of my series “How did my dreams come true”.

 In the last months so many things happened in my life, that I just could not keep up with the writing! I will let you know as my series goes on, because 2 weeks ago a huge dream came true!

 A little summary for those of you you who did not read my last posts how my dreams came true: in part 1 I wrote about my practical year at a bible school and in part 2 about my studies to be a teacher. Part 3 was about my move to another city.

Now comes part 4: my time as a teacher.

 After my first and second state examination for teachers at primary and secondary school

I moved from south Germany to the middle of Germany – 5,5 hours away from where I grew up.

 I remember the evening before my first day in school as a teacher. 28 six year old children where about to start their school career with the first grade. And the teacher was ME! Wow – I was fully responsible for 28 little kids, starting school, teaching them how to write, read, count and how to get along with other children and teachers.

 I remember my sister calling me around 9pm asking me: And, what did you plan to do on the first day at school? And because I had the accident with my car just a few days before and had to organzie a lawyer and many other things, I didnt have much time for preparation. So I started with a night shift of preparing my first lesson. 

For german kids and parents the first day in school is a very important day and before they have their first lesson, the whole school welcomes them in the auditorium with a little program where the kids, parents and grandparents join.

After this they have their first lesson alone with the teacher.

 Here is a picture of my first day at school (not as a teacher, but a student =)

So this first day in school is not only important for the kids and parents but also for the teachers.

 It was a beautiful day and I enjoyed getting to know „my“ 28 kids which I taught then for the next 4 years.

It was amazing to see them throughout grade 1,2,3 and 4 and how they grew up and learned a lot of things for their lives.

 For me it was a privilege to work at a christian school, because I could share my faith in God openly.

In the morning we always had a time, where we read something from the bible or we spoke about a bible verse and how we can live it out in our daily life. I think the best thing how to learn bible verses is through songs. That’s what I did with my primary students.

My dad worked in a mission where they recorded CD’s and they produced a few CD’s with bible verses for kids. So I used these in my class and the kids loved it.

Learning bible verses through songs it’s not only a good way to learn for kids but also for adults.

 Every year I visited each kid and the family in their homes to get to know the environment they live in. It was very interesting and insightful to see the dynamics of the family life (parents interacting with their kids, condition of the house, order in the kids room…).

 I loved interacting with the children, the parents, my colleagues. What gave me a headache was all the preparation at home and the report writing every 6 months. In my first year it took me at least 3 hours per student to write the report – and I had 28 kids in my class = more than 90 hours….. when did I do this? Mainly in the night when everything was quiet and I was able to concentrate – because I lived on a busy road and it was quite loud during the daytime. I remember sleeping usually not more than 4 or 5 hours.

 It was a very stressful time being a teacher, but also very rewarding. I am very grateful for this experience and for the wonderful people I met during this time. I worked there 5 years and then I moved on. In my next posts I will write about how I started bible school, working in mission, then as a flight attendant.

 ??? I am wondering what experiences you had when you started your first job. It would be nice to hear from you!

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Solving…

Here comes the solving of the quiz from my last post =)

Do you know the answer now,  looking at this picture below?

I live very very close to it =)

I think it was last year when I went with my bike to find this spot: I wanted to take some pictures. The tricky thing: it started raining like crazy. So I waited under a tree until the rain and the thunderstorm was over – and this is when I took this interesting photo.

When I look at the church and the football stadium, some questions come to mind:

What makes a difference in the world?

Is it:

a) football

or

b) the church (meaning all christians/ believers)?

 

What is your purpose in life? Why are you living here on earth?

So many different thoughts going around my head now, but I want to leave you and me for now with this question:

Who is your GOD? 

How do you spend your time?

 

 

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How did my dreams come true (Part 3)

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After my practical year at the bible school (post part 1) and after studying to be teacher (post part 2) I finally started to work as a teacher. I moved from South Germany – the so called “three country corner” – Germany (South Black Forest), Switzerland and France to the west of Germany – the southern “Rhurgebiet”.

I didn’t have much time to move and prepare for my 1st grade. Usually teachers have 6 weeks summer vacation. But because I moved from the southern part of Germany to the west of Germany – where they have different vacation times – I had 2 weeks off, instead of 6 weeks. So I had to move and settle in and prepare for my first 1st grade with 28 kids. My first workplace! Wow! I was responsible for 28 “little 6 year old kids” – what a responsibility.

I packed my stuff and went with my little red car (my first own car – a little red Peugeot 106!). My dad always had Peugeots (French cars), so it was obvious for me to have a Peugeot as well. The Peugeot company was founded in 1810, and manufactured coffee mills and bicyles. They also produce spice mills (have a look at your pepper mill – maybe its from Peugeot =)

I packed my small red car with my personal belongings. My dad drove with his car  in front of my mother and I in my red car.

We had to drive 5 ½ hours to my new residence. I talked about different topics with my mum and suddenly I said: I am glad I never had an accident! Then my mum told me how my dad and her had an accident when they just were engaged.

I think it was about half an hour later on the freeway – behind a curve there was a traffic jam. I was breaking very hard and meanwhile a motorcyle crashed into my car from behind. I was driving on the right lane on the freeway and was dashed to the left side and my car turned 180 degrees. The whole freeway was blocked inner seconds and very soon two huge ambulances where there because it looked like a very big accident. The ambulance guy asked me: Do you have a shock? I said: “I don’t think so……”

To make a long story short: NOTHING happened to me and my mum – I didn’t even have a whiplash. The guy on the motorcycle was also ok and had just minor injuries – thanks be to God!  God protected us in such an amazing way that even my big mirror wasn’t broken! But my car was a total write-off!

The tow-car came to pick up my car, my mother and I and we got  another car that I could use for two weeks. So we moved all my belongings – including the mirror – in the other car and drove safely to my new rented flat.

My dad and my sister were already there waiting for us. We sat down and thanked our LORD that he protected us in a miraculous way! When I think of the whole story I still get goosebumps and tears in my eyes.

Well – the start into my “dream-job” as a teacher was quite tough! But through all this I had so much help – even right away from my neighbour who was a lawyer and helped me to deal with the accident!

Because of  the accident I didn’t have much time to prepare for school. I was so busy organizing everything  (lawyer, insurance, new car…).

The evening before my first lesson at school my sister called me and asked me: so what are you going to do tomorrow with your first grade? I said: I don’t know yet. I was so glad that she gave me some ideas and I worked in the night to get everything ready and the first lesson with my gorgeous first graders went well!  We had a big celebration with the whole school and the parents. Then I had my first lesson with the kids and then the photographer took a nice photo!

When I look back I think: wow – what a challenging start in my first job! But with God and the help of my family and neighbours I managed my first weeks at school!

And: my dad found a “new” little car for me – of course a Peugeot! How he found this car is another story =)

So my second car was not red, but green this time – and guess what? I still drive this car!! It is now 18 years old! Amazing!

In my first year of working as a teacher there were a lot of challenges: I almost “went to heaven”  – said the doctor. This is another story in itself. But through God’s grace I am still alive! I guess he still wanted me here on earth for a reason! To live out his calling for my life, to love him and to love others.

 ??? What challenges did you have in your life??? What dreams came true in your life???

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How did my dreams come true (Part 2)

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In my last post I told you that I had many dreams and still have.

After my 13 years of school I spent one year at a bible school working practically (laundry and music team) – see my last post (Part 1). This year I didn’t earn anything, it was voluntary work. It was one of my best years ever!

During this time I looked into the program of becoming a teacher. When I read all these information, what it involves to become a teacher I got discouraged and thought: how in the world am I able to do all this? But then I thought about it and prayed about it and I decided: I am going to try! I guess every change and every start somewhere is not easy! Because you have to leave friends, you have to start in a new city, get familiar….

So I started to study to become a qualified primary and secondary school teacher (until grade 10).

I put a lot of effort in my studies and I used to be out of the house the whole day, often from 6 am (to catch a train) to 8pm or 10pm.  I studied 4 years: applied Science at Primary Level, Religious Education, Educational Science and Educational Psychology. After this I had to write a thesis and did written and oral examinations in the mentioned subjects.

I really enjoyed Psychology and was very interested in it. After my studies I thought: I wish I could study councelling/coaching. But I had to be patient until this dream finally came true last year (17 years after I started “dreaming” about it!  In this I really needed to learn how to be patient, but then finally last year it was the “right timing” (when I got my certificate in coaching).

In order to become a fully qualified primary and secondary school teacher I had to undergo an extensive training period of 18 month, compromising theoretical and practical educational as well as methodical training.  This 1,5 years was the toughest years I ever had. I really came to my limit!

I was busy from early morning till very late at night and also usually the weekends. In Germany they say, when you have this training of 18 month: forget your friends – you don’t have time for ANYTHING, accept your training. And it’s true. It was a very tough time, but also a good time. I was teaching in 1,2,3 and 4th grade, as well as 5.,6.,7.,8. grade. I remember when I first came in the school, the older students thought that I was a new student =) That was quite funny! One day I had to go through the classroom of the 8th grade and one guy shouted something at me. Then his colleague said to him: Hey, she is a teacher. He got so embarrassed!

I have many nice and funny memories of this time! But also there were times when I thought: I can’t anymore, I have NO strength anymore. So there were also a lot of tears involved, a lot of stress.

But when I think back on it: it was so worthwile to follow this dream to become a teacher!

I guess you also experienced it: when you follow your dream you have to give up many other things, you really need to focus on your goal and say “goodbye” to many other things you would like to do as well. It is a lot of work, it costs a lot of energy, strength, nerves, time….. BUT: in the end it is so rewarding! When you reached your goal you are so happy and nobody can take this away from you!

I am very, very thankful that my family helped me a lot in my studies. Especially my oldest sister: she spent many, many hours helping me and supporting me. I will never forget when I had my exam lesson in the 7th grade. Topic: Monastery.

The whole family was involved in helping me get all the things ready, because I had only a certain amount of time to prepare before this exam in the classroom. I worked basically day and night and my dad handcrafted two beautiful monasteries for the students, because I did a lesson where the students hands, head and heart where involved.

In my other exam lesson my dad went into the forest and collected things from the forest, because the topic was a biological one (for the younger kids).

Right the night before my exam in the classroom my computer crashed and my work from a few hours was gone. So I just made it until the morning and my dad photocopied at  2 or 3 am  am my written lesson preparations (I had to explain every little step – why I do this instead of doing something else,  I slept for 2-3 hours and went to school for the exam: one lesson in maths grade 1 and one lesson in science in grade 3.

After these exam lessons I was so relieved – with GOD’s help I finished it! I was so thankful, because these exams really showed me: I could have never done it out of my own strength. God really helped me through, because there were so many obstacles along the way (would take too long to explain it here).

Dreams can come true: with God’s help, with your effort and with the help of others!

??? How did one of your dreams came true??? It would be nice if you share some experiences!

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How did my dreams come true? (Part 1)

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I had many dreams in my life and I never stopped having dreams.

Here are some of my dreams I had: I wanted to become a teacher, a fulltime youth worker, a stewardess and a life coach.

Which dream came true in my life? All – so far!

When I look back I think: how in the world did I manage to do all these things? I could have never done it out of my own strenght and just by myself! There were many people along the way who helped and supported me and who believed in me! And the most important thing: God was in there! He guided me through all the processes. When you reached the dream: it is the best thing ever! But the steps to reaching the dream aren’t that easy and there is a lot of discouragement along the way as well. It is very hard work and you also have to say NO to many things. You just don’t have time anymore to talk endless hours to your friends or spend the weekends just enjoying yourself. It is hard work. BUT: it is worth it!

I am very thankful when I look back! The things I did and experienced in my life so far couln’t have happened without the support of my lovely family! They really helped me to live out my dream.

My parents supported and encouraged me. They said: if you really know that this is what God wants you to do: go for it! They believed in me and helped me a lot. We were always very busy – our whole family (my parents and my three sisters): caring for education and working hard. My mum stayed at home and supported us in a tremendous way. She is really amazing and not selfish at all! She was always happy when we were happy. She abdicated from so many things she could have done by herself, but instead she supported us wherever she could with her whole strength! Also my dad! As a leader of a mission he had so much going on and so much work to do. But he always spent time with us even if he had to work then in the night preparing for bible studies, sermons and many other things.

What I want to say with this. My dreams came true with the incredible help of my parents and also my sisters. The support of a loving family or loving people who believe in you is so important in reaching a dream

I can honestly say: my mum really stepped back so that her kids can live out their dreams that they can live out their God given potential. She encouraged us and was always there for us and cared for us at home. And when I look back now I think: how in the world did she do this? I am so selfish compared to her.

After 13 years of school in the german school system I decided to do a “practical year” before my studies. My parents supported me strongly in this and said that it would be such a good opportunity to spend one year doing practical work.

So I went to a bible school where people studied theology or do a practical year like I did. This community is called “Lebenszentrum Adelshofen”.

The Lebenszentrum is an interdenominational, evangelical centre of Christian learning and living that serves the Christian Church. It is an order of 22 celibatarian sisters and 9 celibatarian brothers who run the Lebenszentrum as institution together with several married and single staff members.

“Through our prayer and worship times and daily sharing of our lives with students and guests we wish to exemplify Christian love and fellowship and provide an environment where Christians can grow in love and knowledge of God.

As groups and teams of the Lebenszentrum we reach out to share the Gospel and help churches in their ministry to people in need” (http://www.lza.de/english.htm)

What did I do there for one year? I attended a one year discipleship program for young christians 18-24 years ( I was 19 years at this time).

It involved the following:

Share life:

build relationships, talk with each other, be active, , music, play, celebrate together, be creative, take responsibilty, solve conflicts, sports, be „on the way“

Work together

discover your gifts, train your skills, learn new things, work practical: working on site, in the garden, in the kitchen, at the reception, in the service, repair cars…

Encounter God

in your personal time with God, devotion time with others, worship, in community, in answer to prayer, on the move with Jesus, e.g. in the youth group, on the street, in the houses for asylum seekers …….

Grow in your personality

live out discipleship in the daily life, one day a week lesson on different topics, e.g. your calling, communication and conflicts, discover your gifts, prepare bible studies, attend a class in the theological seminar, learing to play guitar, singing in the choir…

I worked one year mainly in the laundry: washing clothes for all the 130 people and ironing clothes (blouses, skirts and pants for the community). I think I broke the record in ironing a blouse the fastest =) Sometimes I also had the opportunity to play piano and sing with a group of people. They had big meetings once in a while with around 1000 people and a program with music, plays and preaching sermons.

This was probably the best year I ever had in my life! I learned so many things, I met so many people, I grew in my faith!

What was unique in this community: they prayed about everything! If food was missing, they prayed that God will provide it. If there was any problem, they prayed for it! Big or small – they prayed for everything and knew that God will listen and will answer in his own way!

Every Saturday we had an hour with the whole community together: 130 people. We met in the chapel in the house. This “hour” was called: hour of praise&gratitude.

In this hour we sang songs, we prayed and we told each other what God has done during the week, how he blessed us, how he answered prayers, what we experienced with HIM during the week.

It was an amazing “hour” of praise to God! Nothing was too small not be not told. It was not the “big” miracles that happened (although there were definitely some), but it was more the “small” things in the daily life, e.g. a computer didn’t work and there was no money to fix it and a person prayed for it and the computer worked again or God send a person out of the blue to fix it, or there was a big meeting coming up with 1000 people and they needed potatoes for a salad and God send a farmer to give them potatoes. They never told people what they needed, instead they asked God – their provider for everything. They had such a trust in God! I am so glad I learned already in my family how to trust in the LORD and also how to pray also for little things and during this year I practised it even more. They were such a positive example for me these peopel in the community. Simply amazing!

During this practical year we had this weekly “hour of praise&gratitude” – this was the one of the highlights during the week for everyone. We heard so many stories how God helped in the daily life and how he worked in our lives. To see that we don’t serve a “dead” God, but a living God who cares for the “little” and the “big” things of his children. And also to know: he has the overview over everything! It is not our way – how we want it, but HIS way!

It is so good not to concentrate on our problems, but to concentrate on our great God, who cares for us and loves us! Shouldn’t we give thanks to him more often?

I know that I for sure should! I really try to practise it more and more in my daily life!

 ??? Did you have a dream and this dream came true??? How???

In my next posts I will keep on writing about how my dreams came true!

This practical year at this christian community was a beautiful preparation for my whole life! I am very very thankful for this year and for all the people who invested in me during this time! God bless them richly for this! They invest their time in young people that they can live out their dreams and purpose for the glory of God

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